GHB Addiction Poetry

Thoughts from Those Who Have Been There

Spared

By Randy Edwards

I sometimes wonder why I was spared.
Spared the monster of the detox
Why there was no coma, no death
I wonder how I said I am done, and did for love
Then I realize I was not spared
The devil left me to pick up the ruins I had caused while in his grasp
I was left here for the black hole, and thoughts I could not go on
To sit and wonder who had it worse?
Me to fight or those who perished
I pray for mercy, for the things I did
I pray for peace in my heart again
I realize I was not spared
The monster leaves some of us to feel the pain of the ruin we have left
Or is it God that sent his angels to save me
I ask why me
I know only one answer
To help, to help save the innocent
Innocent like I once was
Before I lost my halo
So I do God’s work, but the monster gets pleasure in my pain
The pain of lost love, beat up friendships, and relationships that detached from me
I ask for mercy, and forgiveness, but I think this is a long ride

GHB--The One You Hate

By The Pitsch

I am the one you hate. I am the one that runs you in circles, in and out of life’s patterns. Self Destruction is my favorite game. I crave it. I laugh in your face as I destroy your ambitions, your goals, your achievements. You’ll never succeed when I’m in the way. No, you have to stop me first. But can you? I ask again! CAN YOU REALLY STOP ME?

Think about it. I have been with you for a long time now. I have become part of you. Or have I? Do you remember life without me? Do you remember as a little boy? Do you remember then? In grade school young and insecure, weren’t you just waiting to discover me? I will always be with you as long as you want Nate. I am always willing to help impede your progress one last time. Just give me the chance. For you will never realize just how strong you can be without me. Do you know why? Because you simply have never given yourself the chance. You walk before you can crawl without me. Run before you can walk without me. Build a house in one day, right Nate? Go ahead put the pressure on. If only you would realize that you’re manning the pressure gauge. Blow it again. Go ahead, do it. Rely on me one more time. If only you had the heart to step away for just one moment. Don’t think you can run away by leaving me for another. You’re just running back to me in disguise. So it comes down to this. Just you and I, Nate. What will it be?

I know what you’ll do. You will return. For that is what you have done for a long time now, and we are both used to it, right? Or are you finally ready to learn from the patterns I walk you through? Do yourself a favor and listen to a word from the enemy. For often it is the side of yourself you do not see. Give yourself a chance Nate! It won’t be easy and you know it. You have failed and made broken promises more than once. Stand up and fight when you feel weak. When you think of me I know it is easy to think of the good times but from now on, think of the destruction and the pain I cause. Beat me and you can beat anything! Give it your all, every step of the way and you will not fall. Stand and leave me now. The world is calling you…….

I Crawled To The Edge

By Randy Edwards

I crawled to the edge, but it was not me
I had lost myself a long time ago
I looked over the edge into the hole
A deep black hole that was my soul

I saw two eyes, and he said to me
Would you like a cap of ghb
I knew this demon the strongest of all
Just take it my friend and your troubles will be gone

Then why do I feel this hole in my soul?
The one that never goes away

Just one cap you say and everything will be all right,
But demon friend you’ve lied to me from the start
Right upon a store shelf, and made great claims of physical health

Instead I lost myself, my love and friends that paid the ultimate price

But I’m getting up you bastard and now you have to deal with me.

So my demon friend lets lie alone right here on my couch for awhile
And I’ll detox all your lies and pain right out of my soul

You underestimated me and my strength, and tried to throw some land mines out to break my spirit down, and now I will be on every corner telling everyone that this is worse than the heroin demon, and I won’t be alone

If I take one soul back from you it is worth my time, and I will always be here to fight your evil ass.

When I looked over the edge you had a big ol smile for me. You thought I was like Tyson on the canvas in Japan that day, but I got my ass up, and took my soul back from your evil ass.
Where’s your smile now my friend, you don’t seem so happy now. I can’t bring back what you took from me, and I can’t bring back the souls you took, but I can fight your ass until the day I die

I looked back over the edge one day, right into my soul,
The demon will always be there, but he no longer has my soul, and never smiles at me. He hates me with all his being that I surely know.

Sorry Mike I was a little late, but I will save some others from your fate.
I know that you were proud of me. So watch my brother, watch with pride as fight the demon until I die.

A Boy Had a Dream

By Randy Edwards

A boy had a dream. He worked at that dream with all his heart, but the boy got off track. He still pursued his dream to try to make him happy, but found know happiness in his heart. A demon came to him, and said here is what you need my friend. The boy caved and gave into the demon. The demon had lied. There was no happiness, but more emptiness. A heart of loneliness. The boy still tried to pursue his dream, but lost love friendship, and self respect. Then God stepped in and said my son. This is the plan. You will have to endure much hardship, pain, hurt. Maybe more than ever before. I am putting this on your shoulders because I know you can handle it. I will give you tools to help you on your journey. Don't question if it is the right thing to do just follow my path. You will lose precious parts of your life, but you will help countless. In the end you will see why I had to hurt you, Why you had to feel pain. You will see why I had to let you fall and lose your self respect, but when addicts from everywhere start thanking you, and people read of your hardships and think about it twice. You will be blessed because you have helped a soul and maybe saved a life. The boy said are you sure lord. Am I the one to carry this message. Look what I have done. The pain I have caused. The lord said I am sure. I already see the end. Just do as I say here is your path. Now get to work there are souls and lives that depend on you, and don't listen to the demon voice. Pray when he talks to you. Ok lord the boy said I hope I make you proud. I will do everything I can to bring this demon down. Now what do I do. The lord smiled and said you will know. Just follow the path I lay. Then everyday there was something new, and the lord showed him the way. All he did was follow and great things happened. The boy made the world aware of the demon who had hid. He saved souls and it was cleansing. Now I follow the path each day still wondering about some of my questions, like why did I have to feel some of this pain, but then I think what Jesus went through, and maybe I had it good. God will show me one day. That I have no doubt. Today it is one day at a time and follow what God has put in front of me.

Great Big Bottle of G

By Lynn

Once met a man in my local gym land
He smiled because I did not understand
Then he held up a great big bottle of G
He said it was the finest in the land.
I said no, no, no
I don't drink it no more
I'm tired of waking up on the floor
No thank you please
It only makes me seize
And makes it hard to find the door.