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*** As Told By Matt Green Sent: May 07, 2000

I just wanted to say, that I was addicted to GHB (Blue Verve) for at least 6 months. It first started out as recreational use on the weekends, but then i was using it to sleep. I would have deep sleep sessions only lasting 3 to 4 hours. From there i went into taking 3 caps every four to five hours just to function. When I did stop cold turkey, it was hell. I had shakes, I couldn't think, i was freaked out. I went to the doctor after 5 days of insanity and No sleep. He was not to familiar with the drug. He thought the withdrawals i was having were from other drugs. I was placed on beta blockers to stop the racing thoughts going through my mind. I then experimented with over the counter sleeping pills combined with the beta blockers to sleep. Eventually i had to take volume, and xanxix, to sleep. I have been on paxil for the last 4 months, because after the GHB withdrawals, I went into a deep depression. It effected my whole life. I can give you a lot more information a much more detail if need be. I just wanted to share my story with you. Because when i was going through my private hell, I only wish others new what i was talking about. If you would like more info email me at oddcupal@bellsouth.net

Matt Green

*** As Told By Anonymous (as requested by the writer) Date: May 19 2000

Subject: GHB Death

On Sunday, May 7, 2000 my family returned home from a wonderful outing at the beach. It was a beautiful day, and my two little boys went swimming in our backyard pool while my husband and I continued to relax reading the newspaper outside. It was late afternoon, 4 p.m., a bit before dinner time but perfect time for a Corona (with lime, of course). Aah, life is good, we said.

The phone rang and I figured it was someone calling from the newspaper where my husband is the managing editor. Some kind of "breaking news" and "should we put it on the front page?"

Well, it was breaking news, but not from someone at the paper. It was my production manager: a lovely girl and hard worker, 26 years old who I'll call "Rose".

She had found her roommate dead 4 hours earlier. Understandably, she was hysterical.

My production manager Rose, who is also my friend, was in to "G" and other drugs as I found out in the days following her best friend's death. Saturday night they were partying and celebrating another one of their close friend's birthday. Rose and her roommate did "G" together, always together, because if you "G out", anyone around need to know what to do. Rose and her roommate made a promise not to G that night, because birthday gal didn't do it, and didn't know they did.

Rose's roommate stayed at a friend's house that night and partied some more. Rose was to pick her up around noon to go to the beach. When she got there, her roommate was "still sleeping". And she was indeed... eternal sleep.

Rose found her roommate face down on the bed. She had fouled herself and the smell was incredible. She found her 10 minutes to noon. She was as cold as ice and her body was completely stiff.

Of course, she tried to wake her up. But she knew. Of course, Rose knew. Her best friend and roommate was dead.

Although they "always G'ed together", that didn't happen that night. Her roommate did some G, and took just a little too much. And from what I understand, it just takes a little to be too much.

This freaked me out to the point of doing research on this thing and subscribing to this list.

According to Rose, GHB is available everywhere in this town and probably yours.. You want it --- you get it.

Rose is done with her GHB days. Rose is done with her "designer" drug days. She received one [heck] of a wakeup call as she was even more in to it than her roommate.

Kat Waters wrote a really awesome story on GHB, which I received through this newsgroup. Hopefully, y'all have read it. And she's right on: If you're gonna do it, make SURE someone knows. You need to checked on if you do "G Out". And these stupid, incredible web sites and G products that advise "Not to get medical attention" is INSANE.

I'm now watching my friend go through hell. It was only 2 weeks ago. But she is making me proud--she's strong and now a big time advocate of the danger of GHB. She wants to speak at high schools, and my husband (remember, the newspaper guy?) intends to do a story. This death of a beautiful, young 25 year old girl MUST save others. That is why I am writing.

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