City, State: Savannah GA
Date: February 06, 2001

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When I first found your site a year ago I was disgusted with it because I felt it was propaganda from the FDA and drug companies designed to scare people away from their competition. I had been aware of GHB for 5 years at the time and had believed that GHB was super safe and had no lethal dose or bad side effects. I wanted to believe that there was a holy grail of medicine. [italics added]

I had begun taking GHB/GBL in the summer of '99 on and off. I bought some GBL online and started taking it daily as a dietary supplement in Oct. ' 99. Over the next few months, I saw nothing but good effects from the substance and I would periodically stop taking it for a few days or a few weeks, just to test myself and make absolutely sure that it was not addictive. I had no side effects at all. Great sleep, great sex, lost weight, improved energy.

Then, all of a sudden, after a 2-week break at the end of Jan. 2000, and 4 days of resumed use, I skipped a day and had a very weird reaction 48 hours later. I returned from stagehand work at a concert and felt unusually energetic and manic for 3 AM. Over the next few hours my heart rate elevated to 150 and stayed there for 2 hours, then slowly returned to normal. I got very scared. My mind was racing and my vision seemed hyper intense. Colors were vibrant and sexual fantasies seemed super real. I was scared until I started to hallucinate slightly, and then I thought "Oh, someone, somehow dosed me with a little LSD at the rock concert" I felt irritated but relieved that I knew what was going on and that I just had to ride it out. I fell asleep at 9AM.

I had thought about GHB/GBL being the culprit but talked myself out of it because my past experience was nothing like this at all. This event was at the beginning of Feb. 2000. I continued to take GHB/GBL with no further side effects for another 4 months. In retrospect I see that it began to affect me but I didn't notice it. I could cry on cue and get very emotional about things. I would feel manic and invincible, having bursts of creativity, and then I would feel down. Also, my libido shut down and I had no interest in girls or dating. This I believe is because of the high level of serotonin that GHB causes, much like Prozac.

In mid May, friend saw me preparing my dose of 3/4 teaspoons of GBL to go to sleep, along with another 3/4 teaspoons to take when I awoke after 3.5-4 hours to put me back under til daybreak. He said "Wo man! what are you doing? Your taking a [----load] of that stuff. That's way more than me!" This friend had been taking it along with me for the same time period and I had verbally confirmed we were taking the same dosage and the same frequency, just to be safe. Apparently he did not know the difference between 1/8 tsp and 1/4 tsp and had been inaccurate about his frequency. Right then, I decided to take a break, and I had the scariest, most eye-opening 72 hours of 26 years. The reaction was the same as the one in February, but longer and stronger. I could not sleep at all nor could I shut up. My friends took it in shifts keeping me company and watching me, at my request. I was horrified that GHB/GBL could do this to me. I thought that maybe I had been sold heroin or something else, because GHB could not do this, right? Wrong! GHB affects the dopaminergic systems in the brain and science does not understand fully what it does or how it does it. The fact that it is already in your body and in many foods, does not make taking huge concentrations advisable. God made our bodies quite well and it is a bad idea to mess with them too much.

Since then, I have experimented with doses of 1/8 tsp and less, only to find that I have been permanently sensitized to GHB, and experience the same kind of reaction, only less severe, when I have tested myself. I hope my story forewarns others about the unpredictability of GHB and GBL. If you're young, you don't need to boost your growth hormone level - and don't think that this stuff is harmless.

I am now disgusted with the rabidly pro-GHB sites that recklessly promote the lie that GHB and GBL are only good for you and in fact advisable to take. I am done with the stuff for good, having educated myself in the school of hard knocks. I don't know what kind of long-term health risks I may have acquired, but I will have to face them as they arise. Get the word out- CR