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**Caution: Some comments may be disturbing to read, but we feel that to sugar-coat these comments would undermine the purpose of this site. Date: June 22, 2001 Today's date is June 22, 2001. Next Wednesday, June 27, will be the two year anniversary of my husband's death. He was 21. Too young to die. He left behind a son that will never know his father. That same son will have questions about his father, and be confused about what happened to him. I will then go on to explain what GHB is and why it is so important that he never tries it. I will have to tell him that his father worked out of town during the week and only came home on weekends. One weekend he could not come home due to the fact that he was several hours away from home and had to work late. He decided to go out with his fellow co-workers after work to a night club popularly known for having rave parties. He had several alcoholic beverages and then someone offered him GHB. Trying to fit in with the "in-crowd" he gladly accepted. Later when they returned to the hotel, he decided to set down and rest before driving home. He began to drift off so his so-called friends put him to bed, might I add, they left him. No one even bothered to check on him. The cleaning lady found him lying in the bed, DEAD. The coroner assured me that he passed away in his sleep. I pray to god that he was right. The thought of him leaving this world alone sickens me. Why couldn't I, or anyone for that matter, be there to help him. If no help could have been done, I could have at least held him and comforted him, kissed him goodbye, one last kiss. He done a foolish thing but he didn't deserve to die, and he certainly did not deserve to die alone in a hotel room to be found by the housekeeper. People that loved him should have been there. He deserved to hold his only son one last time. Our son deserved that too. He should have been allowed the opportunity to give his Daddy one last kiss (and a bear hug). It is probably obvious by now that time does not heal all wounds, sometimes it just prolongs the pain. My husband was a good man. He left behind a family that will always love him and mourn his death. I am sorry that there are other people that share a pain like the one our family endured, but it is a comfort to know that there is a web-site like this one where we can all come together and comfort one another. At least when we say "I know what you are going through" we mean it, without muttering under our breath, you do not, you have no idea what I am going through so get out of my face, if you want to help bring my husband back to life, if you can't do that, I don't want to talk to you. I often wonder if this bitterness will go away. Pray for me that it will, and keep our son in your prayers also. Thank you for allowing me the opportunity to share, it is always a huge burden lifted off of my shoulders when I have someone that can relate to talk too. God bless you and your readers.
City, State: Pittsburgh, Pa To Whom It May Concern, On February 14, 1998, I was a victim of date rape via GHB. I had knew the man a little while and he wanted to spend Valentine's Day with me, so I decided everything would be fine, a quiet dinner, a few drinks, and talking to get to know each other better. He had something else in mind. The restaurant conveniently lost our reservation, so he ended up cooking us dinner, half way through dinner I started feeling funny, and not myself. I said "what is in here" the only response I got was "it's something to loosen you up" then was followed by "it's GHB." I immediately felt sick to my stomach, I didn't know what GHB was, nor did I ever hear of it. My vision was getting distorted, and I felt like I wasn't in control of myself. I ended up in the bathroom, getting sick of course, I tried to get some aspirin but I couldn't get the bottle open. He rushed into the bathroom after me and said he would help me feel better, I had thought at the time he was giving me aspirin, but it ended up being something called "St. Joseph" or another form of speed. Probably within five minutes, I was half unconscious in the bedroom without any control over my body, and being forced to perform numerous sexual acts on this man. Afterwards I was so embarrassed I tried to leave, but my clothes were ripped. I went outside to think of what to do, but the front door locked on me. I was so cold and not to mention that I was still dizzy, and getting sicker by the minute. I ended up laying outside on the porch for a while. I figured I should break the window crawl back inside, grab my purse, and call someone to come and get me. I ended up cutting up my leg and was there till the morning. It actually took a week for me to tell someone what had actually happened. I knew something was wrong, and I was just too embarrassed to tell anyone, or to let anyone know. I tried pressing charges, but in the state of Pennsylvania at the time GHB was NOT illegal, so nothing could have been done. I will always remember that day like it was yesterday. J.L.H Pittsburgh, Pa
Name: T- ROY My first experience with the dangers of GHB happened abought two years ago on vacation with friends.We were knowingly ingesting it for the first time when my friend wanted another capfull, so I added two in addition to the two he already taken.Big mistake,he fell unconscious in the hotel.We revived him only to have him collapse in the hotel room for several hours vomiting and urinating himself.You would have thought that this would be my wake up call to the dangers of GHB a drug I knew nothing abought.Wrong! Although I did go on to try GHB a couple of times in the last two years even as recently as late May 2001,only to become sick each and every time I used it.I was always mislead as to the true dangers and facts of GHB and their anologs.This was untill early June of this year when while on vacation I recieved a call that my boyfriend of seven years had overdosed not once but twice requiring him to be hospitalized with a heartrate of four beats per minute, this was in a period of three weeks. I came home two days later to find out my boyfriend had been taking Sucol B an anolog of GHB he had obtained from the internet.In his mind this substance is perfectly safe and he claims to like the way it feels, I believe my boyfriend suffers from long term serious depression which is why he has opted to take this drug Sucol B.I ask him how if this is good, have you been near death twice.He seems to have no responce to my concearns only saying this makes him feel good.He says he will stop taking it.No more than 36 hours after arriving home everthing seemed fine untill he wanted to run outside naked in broad daylight. I asked what was wrong he said nothing.All of the sudden he collapsed on the bed snooring I had a difficult time waking him up,he was drooling profusely and moaning loudly, pulling on himself jerking uncontrollabley and passing out at the drop of a hat.I was so scared it took me twenty minutes to get him to tell me he ingested GHB. I knew from my friends incident that I needed to keep him awake. I screamed for him to get up all the time crying, he jumped up with a wild look look in his eyes something like out of the exorcist.he stumbled abought banging into walls talking incoherently at which point he knocked the cordless phone into the washing machine making it impossible for me to call help.This is abought when he fell through a glass coffee table only to get up with a smirk on his face as if nothing serious was even happening.All in all he collapsed several times not to mention all of the times he fell down.I got him to the car abought 45 minutes into this ordeal and told him he had two choices the hospital or his mothers who lives nearby.He begged me to not take him anywhere.I threatened to go for help on my own,which is when he finally got into the car.It was on the way he realized I was in fact taking him to his mothers when he started threatening to kill himself by jumping out of the car.It was at this time he passed out again,so at this point I let him because I knew he would really hurt himself.We arrived at his moms minutes later as I honked the horn it awakened him,he ran off into the woods screaming he hated me for what I had done,since when is saving a life a bad thing especially when the person involved has no comprehension of what their doing to themselves.I finally caught up to him still acting wildly with a lot of hate inside of him.All he talked abought was wanting to die and this Sucol B gave him an escape from reality.he kept saying he would continue to use it wanting the consiquence to be death. Hours later he appoligized and said he was sorry, but still had residual anger that I went against his wishes and sought out help.on the drive home he said he would still continue using this deadly drug.The following morning he had said it was all over and that he had gotten rid of it and he would never take again. I asked to what extent he was taking it and he replied ten days prior which would have made it after his second serious overdose.Who in thier right mind would almost die twice and continue to take this????. This is when i researched this websight and had an eye opening experience on many levels, one being the fact that GHB is highly addictive among many others things what it is really made of,I was shocked that these chemicals are slipping through mainstream society via the internet and am wondering how many deaths attributed to it our going unnoticed. This is a scary thought. I believe my boyfriend will continue to take Sucol B untill it kills him. I have seen a monster released because of this drug. He refuses help and how do help someone who thinks this in not a problem? I dont want to lose him but I fear all that I've learned is showing otherwise.God bless all that has had this tragedy affect thier lives. Through education and tougher sentencing to the companys that produce these caustic chemicals be foreworned you time is coming,I hope that after reading this it stops one person from becoming a deadly statistic.I know that for myself I will continue to spread the word of how deadly these GHB,precursers and anologs really are. I only hope its not to late for my boyfriend. ining.all in all he collapsed several times |
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